Love is.

I decided to go on a Youtube spree with The Spill Canvas. I absolutely love this band and honestly, their songs to me are just beautiful stories. Even though most of their songs are quite sad, for example, "Self/Conclusion" (which mind you is one of my favourite songs as well) I rediscovered this song again.

Despite how cynical I've been about people and their relationships these days, I still have hope that 'love' or whatever the hell it is, is perfectly described in this song. To be 'valiant' is to be brave and courageous and I think The Spill Canvas have hit the nail on the head on this one because you've got to have something so god damn special if you've found someone that pretty much makes you feel like that there should be nothing to be afraid of, and as long as you have each other, nothing else matters.

And I think that's absolutely beautiful.

Struggling.

It's sometimes hard being the strong one.

'I hate valentine's day' playlist

1. Mr. Brightside - The Killers

2. Grand Theft Autumn/Where is your boy - Fall Out Boy

3. Lazy Eye - Silversun Pickups 

4. Think of you Later (Empty Room) - Every Avenue

5. Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down

6. Lessons in Love - Cartel 

7. That's What You Get - Paramore

8. Reckless - You Me At Six

9. Save Your Heart - Mayday Parade

10. My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

Scars.

We all have reasons to be bitter and hateful towards the person we used to 'love' or should I say really like? Because honestly, the word 'love' is thrown around too much that sometimes it's hard to even believe it exists. Does it exist? 

Second guessing. Doubts. Fears. Rejection. Hurt. Scars. Expectations. Regret.

They all sound too familiar and that's the sad part.